The Norty Borderline

Check in with yourself using just two words. How are you doing today? Do it three times throughout the day, and use the space to illustrate your words to reflect the mood. Morning Motivated, Positive Midday Emotional, Blessed Evening Cranky, Pain  Isn't it amazing how by the end of your day, it can be turned around 180 degrees!! So this morning I was motivated and feeling really positive. By the end of today, I am cranky and in so much pain that I am almost about to lose my s**t! But I actually sat down and wrote in my journal for a few hours to try and get some of the frustrations out that I have and it actually felt good to write it all down. Cleansing in a way, I guess. I am trying to learn to write it down and once I have written it down, I am trying to learn to let it go. Yeah, just like Elsa sang! Ha-Ha! So maybe I need to write in there a bit more tonight, to try and get rid of some more frustrations.  I feel like I had a very productive day and now I am in...

Do you drink too much? What is the purpose of alcohol in your life? What amazing questions Kmart to ask the Norty Borderline! Ha-Ha! I'd like to say that Jack Daniels plays a pivotable part in my life. Ha-Ha! He's one of my best friends! Ha-Ha!  I do not drink every day and I am probably what is classed as a binge drinker. So I don't drink very often, but when I do I end up wiping myself out and there are many times where I am blacked out by the end of the night. That being said, I would have two big nights in one week maximum and even that is not normal, I can go months without drinking if I don't want to. I also don't drink a little amount and find that I can out drink most women and can keep up with the boys. My parents allowed me to drink from about 15 years old, as we grew up in a city and they didn't want me going to the nightclubs and not being able to handle my alcohol. Them doing that, has ended up being a very costly experience for me. It costs me more...

What makes your heart sing? There are a few things that make my heart sing.  Firstly, my family make my heart sing. Especially my daughter. She can drive me absolutely bat s**t crazy some days, but most days she makes my heart sing. Raising her is probably going to be my greatest achievement. Hearing her voice can brighten my day, even if she is being psychotic like her mother! Ha-Ha! She looks nothing like me (she is all her Daddy) but oh my lord is she me in personality. And I can tell you that sometimes that is a recipe for disaster. Ha-Ha! She has also been my reason why I am still here today.  My niece also makes my heart sing. She told me the most beautiful thing a few months ago. She has 6 aunties all up and I am her favourite!! Oh my heart was singing that day I can tell you!! I literally couldn't take the smile off my face all day!! She is a very sweet child, but she loves to spend time with Aunty and she tells me that she misses me all the time, so I know how much sh...

How easy is it for you to say no? For myself, I struggle to say to nearly every single person that I come across in my life. I guess you would call me a people pleaser, who also says what she thinks.  I think that the BPD may play a bit of a part in that though.  Ever since I was a little girl I was taught that I should try and help others when I possibly can, even if it means giving the person my last dollar. I can say that doing this has f**ked me up financially more times than I can count! And I truly have tried extremely hard to help every single person that has asked me for help. But lately I am starting to feel like I am just a sucker when it comes to particular people and helping them. It seems like the friendships are very one sided and I seem to be the one always doing the work.  I do know that I have to learn to start saying no, and I am slowly doing it. I am noticing that I am not hearing from particular people, because I am saying no and not jumping to their e...

Unsure of source of image. So I had to have a look at what self-care Sunday actually is. Basically it is doing all those self-care things on a Sunday.  Do I do self-care Sunday? Not currently, no. It is an idea that I would like to try though. My Sunday today including taking a 3 hour nap. Is napping self-care? Ha-Ha! I know that I need to start looking after myself better, but given my current living situation, not much self-care is happening. I seem to be having more pain and seem to be doing a lot more than what I had to do with my own child. So yeah, I'm tired. So maybe the nap today was some self-care? I did dye my hair this morning, so I guess that was another self-care item done.  I am thinking of having a bath tonight, so that might also be classed as self-care because I love to lay back and just soak in the water. I absolutely love to have a bath, especially a bubble bath with someone rubbing my shoulders. Ha-Ha!  Here are some suggestions from Google on self-car...

                                                                Linkin Park Should've stayed, were there signs, I ignored? Can I help you, not to hurt, anymore? We saw brilliance, when the world, was asleep There are things that we can have, but can't keep If they say Who cares if one more light goes out? In a sky of a million stars It flickers, flickers Who cares when someone's time runs out? If a moment is all we are We're quicker, quicker Who cares if one more light goes out? Well I do The reminders pull the floor from your feet In the kitchen, one more chair than you need oh And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it, isn't there If they say Who cares if one more light goes out? In a sky of a million stars It flickers, flickers Wh...

Alright, so I am an Aussie and we have what I would call very strict gun laws compared to our friends over the ocean in the USA. There has been a massive amount of school shootings and mass shootings in the USA this year alone. As of today the statistics for school shootings this year in the USA are 27. It is only May! That is 5 a month! I am probably going to cop a lot of heat from my US counterparts, but something has to be done! These school and mass shootings can not continue! Too many innocent people, including children are losing their lives when they should be safe! Children should not be going to school and being fearful that they are going to be shot and killed! That is NOT RIGHT! I understand that it is a US citizens right to 'protect' themselves, however a lot of these mass shootings and school shootings are being committed by children and teenagers. My first question is 'how in the hell is a child or teenager getting a hold of an AK-47?' I think that yes, if...

What is that one task that you dread doing at the end of the day?  For me, even though I love my dogs dearly, it would be feeding them. I'm normally in so much pain by the time I am due to feed them, that it is such an effort! Some nights it feels like my arms aren't strong enough to even hold the food, let alone prepare it for them. And when you own a 55kg (121 pounds) dog. He eats quite a bit, let me tell you!! So his bowl can get quite heavy by the time that I give it to him. That being said, I love him beyond words and I will take any pain, just to ensure he is fed every day.  I probably should do it in the mornings, but if I have appointments on then I get even more rushed and then I am anxious, so it is probably not a good idea.  My dogs also know exactly when their dinner time is and my little girl will whine from about 5:15pm until I feed them at 5:30pm. My little girl must think that I am the meanest fur Mummy ever for making her wait a whole 15 minutes for ...

That one time I shat myself.. And of course my sweet, sweet child had to witness it. She was only about 7 at the time and I did pray that she wouldn’t remember.. She remembers every single second of how I s**t myself!! S**t!! Well, it literally was s**t! Lol As I have said before I was a single Mum to my daughter, who is now 22. She is a great kid and has my extremely warped and dark sense of humour. Oh and my sarcasm! LOL Anyway, so we had to go down town (we lived in a regional town in NSW, Australia) and we are heading home. Now I have always had some issues with my belly and even had some testing done. That being said, we are about 5 minutes from home and we are sitting at the lights near a service station and the local hospital. I am in the left lane and probably about 6 cars back from the lights. We have the stereo going as I need music (especially in the car) and I get the pain in my belly that I know is not good. Anyway I actually did think that it was just a fart. So I decided...

How do you prepare for sleep? List five things you do to unwind at the end of the day. 1. Play games on my phone. It’s probably not a great way to unwind, but it does get me to slow down and actually sit. Being that I’m also OCD, I’m continually trying to clean or make things tidier. So when I finally do sit down with my phone and play games, it means I’m done for the night. 2. Have a cup of tea. I love English Breakfast tea. Don’t give me an earl grey. Eew!! HA-HA! Tea just relaxes me. Plus it’s apparently good for me. Winning!! Lol 3. Watch TV but normally disassociate at the same time. Lol got to love being a borderline. Lol I struggle to sit for long periods and watch TV, especially a movie. I usually have to pause a movie and come back to it 3 or 4 times as I just don’t have the attention span to watch a movie fully. 4. Have a bath. I love having baths, except I seem to always make them way too hot and it almost becomes a sauna for me. Lol I also enjoy to read in the bath as my mi...

So seen as though I am an Aussie, I thought I would do a blog post on all the foods that we eat over here, that others may find unusual. Please comment if you are an Aussie and you feel I have left something out, or if you are from another country and you want to know about a particular food, please ask! So obviously I had to do a bit of research when do this blog post and even the first thing that I looked up to get a bit of information (Aussie biscuits) I discovered that my American friends don't call a biscuit like we do. So I looked and my American friends call a biscuit to what us Aussies call a scone. So we have scones with jam and cream or like me with butter or margarine and we normally also have them with a cup of tea or coffee. My Grandmother makes scones with 3 ingredients and they are so light and fluffy, and I absolutely love them! But anyway back to Aussie biscuits. So what we call a biscuit, is actually a cracker or a cookie in the USA. Most of our biscuits are sweet...

Rainbow Ice Cream From An Ice Cream Parlour - Photography The Norty Borderline Ok, so since I was a little girl one of my Dad's favourite things to do was to take us to a ice cream parlour. Especially if we were travelling somewhere and we had never been to that one before. So I have a love of going to an ice cream parlour. And 9 times out of 10, still to this day I get a rainbow ice cream. (I'm not sure if my American friends have rainbow ice cream over there and it is the same flavour and colours as ours, so I am including photos for all you guys). Anyway, I have always wondered what the actual flavour of the rainbow ice cream is, because it has the colours of the rainbow in it. It is just one of those things that you think about while you are eating it, but never actually try and find out, you are just enjoying it that much. It is like the moment that you get handed that ice cream, you have to start licking it. Plus I live in Australia, so our temperatures over here are no...