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What makes your heart sing?

There are a few things that make my heart sing. 

Firstly, my family make my heart sing. Especially my daughter. She can drive me absolutely bat s**t crazy some days, but most days she makes my heart sing. Raising her is probably going to be my greatest achievement. Hearing her voice can brighten my day, even if she is being psychotic like her mother! Ha-Ha! She looks nothing like me (she is all her Daddy) but oh my lord is she me in personality. And I can tell you that sometimes that is a recipe for disaster. Ha-Ha! She has also been my reason why I am still here today. 

My niece also makes my heart sing. She told me the most beautiful thing a few months ago. She has 6 aunties all up and I am her favourite!! Oh my heart was singing that day I can tell you!! I literally couldn't take the smile off my face all day!! She is a very sweet child, but she loves to spend time with Aunty and she tells me that she misses me all the time, so I know how much she loves me. 

My brother also makes my heart sing. He is my rock, he is someone that knows me nearly better than myself. He is also one of the nicest guys I know and he would die for his family. I have never questioned my brother's love for me and I hope that he has never questioned mine. 

My parents also make my heart sing and I am so blessed to still have my parents alive and still kicking. I have always been a Daddy's Girl, but I am also extremely close to my Mum. I also have never questioned my parents love for me and they have proven that it is unconditional love. 

Secondly, music makes my heart sing. If I am listening to music, I am normally happy and if I am not happy when I start listening to music, by the time I have finished I am happy. If I don't listen to music for an extended period of time, it generally means that my depression is quite severe and I am struggling to come out of it. I find music is great for my mental health and I use a lot of songs and lyrics to relate to what I am feeling at that time. I have also found that one place that once I am in there and the music starts is that I have no anxiety at a concert. I have anxiety on the way there and once I get to my seats or floor space, but the moment that music starts, my anxiety is all gone! Music can be great for the soul! 

Thirdly, my dogs make my heart sing. I have lived almost all of my life with a dog in my house. Whether I was a child or an adult, I have always had a dog. I currently have two dogs, one is almost 10 years old and the other is just over a year old. My almost 10 year is my baby, I have never had a connection with a dog like I do this one. This dog just makes me smile by looking at me and would be happy to be by my side all day and night if I would allow it. My one year old little girl is my firecracker. I have never owned a female dog before her, so it is definitely different, but she genuinely makes me smile and she is so cheeky. She also speaks and will inform me when I am not paying her enough attention or she wants belly rubs. She has a very sweet personality and I do believe that she is learning that from her older brother as my big baby has the sweetest personality ever. He loves everyone he meets as long as you are giving him your undivided attention and are rubbing his chest.  

So now that I have listed some of the things that make my hear sing, what things make your heart sing? Leave a comment with all the things that make your heart sing. 

The Norty Borderline

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