Two Word Check-In - Kmart Journal Entry

Check in with yourself using just two words. How are you doing today? Do it three times throughout the day, and use the space to illustrate your words to reflect the mood.

Morning

Motivated, Positive

Midday

Emotional, Blessed

Evening

Cranky, Pain 

Isn't it amazing how by the end of your day, it can be turned around 180 degrees!! So this morning I was motivated and feeling really positive. By the end of today, I am cranky and in so much pain that I am almost about to lose my s**t! But I actually sat down and wrote in my journal for a few hours to try and get some of the frustrations out that I have and it actually felt good to write it all down. Cleansing in a way, I guess. I am trying to learn to write it down and once I have written it down, I am trying to learn to let it go. Yeah, just like Elsa sang! Ha-Ha! So maybe I need to write in there a bit more tonight, to try and get rid of some more frustrations. 

I feel like I had a very productive day and now I am in a large amount of pain and really did push myself probably a little too hard today, but I feel like I don't have a choice. I can't handle mess and even though I am not the one making the mess, I seem to be the one that is cleaning up after everyone else. I am tired and just want to look after myself and not anyone else. I wish someone would look after me, like I do others!! So I am currently sitting here typing this with a heat pack. I have to go and feed my dog soon and I don't even have the energy to do that tonight. But I would never let my baby go hungry, so she shall be fed. Lol

I think I shall stay in my room tonight and watch some TV and try and reset, and ease some of this pain. I don't even know what I shall watch, I will almost guarantee that it will be something true crime though. 

I do like the idea of a two word check in. I think I might try and do it more often, so that I am reflecting on my moods during the whole day. Being a borderline, I struggle with my moods and tend to be happy one hour and completely depressed the next hour. It truly does suck to be a borderline a lot of the time. 

How was your day? Was it productive? What did you do? Were you motivated or busy?