The Norty Borderline

Do you drink too much? What is the purpose of alcohol in your life? What amazing questions Kmart to ask the Norty Borderline! Ha-Ha! I'd like to say that Jack Daniels plays a pivotable part in my life. Ha-Ha! He's one of my best friends! Ha-Ha!  I do not drink every day and I am probably what is classed as a binge drinker. So I don't drink very often, but when I do I end up wiping myself out and there are many times where I am blacked out by the end of the night. That being said, I would have two big nights in one week maximum and even that is not normal, I can go months without drinking if I don't want to. I also don't drink a little amount and find that I can out drink most women and can keep up with the boys. My parents allowed me to drink from about 15 years old, as we grew up in a city and they didn't want me going to the nightclubs and not being able to handle my alcohol. Them doing that, has ended up being a very costly experience for me. It costs me more...

How easy is it for you to say no? For myself, I struggle to say to nearly every single person that I come across in my life. I guess you would call me a people pleaser, who also says what she thinks.  I think that the BPD may play a bit of a part in that though.  Ever since I was a little girl I was taught that I should try and help others when I possibly can, even if it means giving the person my last dollar. I can say that doing this has f**ked me up financially more times than I can count! And I truly have tried extremely hard to help every single person that has asked me for help. But lately I am starting to feel like I am just a sucker when it comes to particular people and helping them. It seems like the friendships are very one sided and I seem to be the one always doing the work.  I do know that I have to learn to start saying no, and I am slowly doing it. I am noticing that I am not hearing from particular people, because I am saying no and not jumping to their e...

  What keeps you awake at night? What do you regularly dream about? How would you rate the quality of your sleep? What three things can you do to improve it (if you need to)? What keeps me awake at night? I think that might be one of the silliest questions to ask someone with Borderline Personality Disorder... HA-HA! I am an overthinker and seem to do most of my 'overthinking' later at night. So I am lucky that I have explained this to my mental health team and I am on a medication that helps with my moods and I take it at night, so it sedates me. So I am going to sleep about an hour and a half after I take the medication and it sedates me enough that I fall asleep and don't think. I think the most that I think about is going to sleep. It has been a rather problematic symptom for me since I was in my teenage years, so I am glad that my mental health team are helping me with the symptoms I feel are the worst. And insomnia and overthinking just seem to overlap for me. I love ...

This is the opening quote to the Kmart journal that I bought. So I thought I would do a blog on why keeping a journal can really help. Whether it be a blog that no one else see or a paper journal I personally feel that keeping a journal is great for ones mental health. Sometimes all you need to do is just get it out. And you may feel that there is absolutely no one that you could say the things you want to, so you put it in a journal. Hence, sometimes only paper will listen to you.  I have kept mainly journals over my life, but I always seem to end up not finishing the book or my life gets too busy and I forget about writing in it and then I find it 5 years later and have already started probably another 2! LOL I have started a new journal in the past month and would you believe that I actually think that I may actually finish the journal!! Wowsers! And I do think that it has been really quite therapeutic and good for my mental health and my relationships with friends etc. I found ...