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Introduction

So I thought I would start with a bit of an intro.

At this present time, I do not want to expose who I am and would like to keep complete anonymonity. In the future, I may let everyone know who I am, but for now, I'm not comfortable with that.  I will also be using pseudonyms for any family, friends or people that I know, so as to try to keep complete anonymonity.

I'm 41 and was diagnosed with BPD quite later on in life and it wasn't diagnosed until I was 32. I not only have BPD, but I have also been diagnosed with anxiety, depression, body dysmorphia & trichotillomania.  Living with so many mental health issues can take its toll, but I consider myself quite strong in personality and try to recognize my symptoms or traits before they get severe.

I have been on many different medications and finally feel like I am on one that is working and that I am not a 'zombie'. The medications that I have used are olanzapine, seroquel, fluvoxamine, mirtazapine, Prozac, valium, effexor and that is just the ones that I can remember.  I am currently using mirtazapine and am finding it to be rather effective.  Being that I am borderline, I do need that mood stabilizer and I also need a sedative at night, so that I don't lay there at night over thinking and then not sleeping.  It is a chain effect on my mood if I don't sleep well.  One thing I am not good at is handling little sleep.  If I go without sleep, I literally am the crankiest bitch on the planet.  A bear with a sore head.

I currently am under the guidance of a psychologist, who is the first person I feel totally comfortable opening up to.  He also is not just about getting me to talk about stuff that is bothering me, but he is also helping me complete DBT and also put a lot of positive steps in place for my mental health to be a lot better.  I actually feel blessed to have this psychologist.  In regards to a psychiatrist, I use a service called Psych2U and it is a session with a psychiatrist over skype.  I felt a lot better being in the comfort of my own home and not going out in public with the anxiety that I get.  I will delve into this service more in another blog.

Anyway I think that is about it for now.  Expect a lot more on here!! :-)

The Norty Borderline


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